I'M BACK BITCHES!!!

Save Me From Myself

I just adore her and I am so glad she is so happy.

"Nessun Dorma!!!"

Have you ever gotten a song stuck in your head and you just can not rest until you hear it? Well this is what happened to me today. The trouble was I had no idea what the name of the song was. Thank God for iTunes!!! I just punched in Luciano Pavarotti's name and listened to all the songs until I found the one that I wanted. Here it is I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.



Here are the words in ITALIAN;
Nessun dorma! Nessun dorma!
Tu pure, o, Principessa,
nella tua fredda stanza,
guardi le stelle
che fremono d'amore
e di speranza.

Ma il mio mistero e chiuso in me,
il nome mio nessun sapra!
No, no, sulla tua bocca lo diro
quando la luce splendera!

Ed il mio bacio sciogliera il silenzio
che ti fa mia!

(Il nome suo nessun sapra!...
e noi dovrem, ahime, morir!)

Dilegua, o notte!
Tramontate, stelle!
Tramontate, stelle!
All'alba vincero!
vincero, vincero!


ENGLISH
None must sleep! None must sleep!
And you, too, Princess,
in your cold room,
gaze at the stars
which tremble with love
and hope!

But my mystery is locked within me,
no-one shall know my name!
No, no, I shall say it as my mouth
meets yours when the dawn is breaking!

And my kiss will break the silence
which makes you mine!

(No-one shall know his name,
and we, alas, shall die!)

Vanish, o night!
Fade, stars!
At dawn I shall win

A Deeper Love

First and foremost I would like to thank you all for the birthday wishes that I received today as well as the sound advice. As you can tell last night I was in a melancholy mood and pretty much everything I have been feeling for the last few months finally came to a head. For full disclosure I actually wrote a much darker post on New Year's Eve, but after about an hour I took it down. I actually thought the post I wrote last night was bit more hopeful...lol. I guess not since people have threaten to come and kidnap me and all.

Anyway, today when I first woke up I was still feeling sad, but then after a little while of lying in bed I got up took a shower and decided to make the most out of my day. I went to the mall which I very rarely do and I spent a little money on myself which is another rarity. I bought myself a couple of cute tops, a new pair of boots and a digital camera. I can not wait to figure out how to work my camera, so I can start posting pictures on my blog.

After I picked E up from school I brought him home and modeled my new shirts and boots for him to get his opinion. He approved of the boots and one shirt, but wasn't really feeling the other one...LOL. Then I made a simple birthday dinner of spaghetti and cheesy bread. Once dinner dishes were cleaned up I put on a old Ultimate Dance Party CD and we danced around the house for about an hour straight. We did everything from the robot to the bump...hell E even made up some dances and we laughed and laughed and laughed. It was great!!

I know that I have the glass half empty mentality, but I am going to change that mind set right now. I guess I was always afraid to think of myself in a positive way for fear of what others thought of me. I didn't want people to tell me that I wasn't worthy and so I guess I called myself beating them to the punch. I know that makes no sense what so ever now.

I may not be in the place that I want to be at age 30, but I am still growing. I am getting better, wiser and stronger every day and most importantly I am blessed with everything I need. It doesn't matter that I am not a fashionista, or have 25 fancy degrees on my wall or that I rent instead of own my own place. All that matters is that I am moving forward one step at a time.

My major problem is that I try to make leaps and bounds and when it doesn't happen the way that I want I get frustrated and retreat. I focus, so much on the future that I miss what is right in front of me. This year and all the years ahead of me I am going to take the time to stop and smell the roses so to speak. I am also going to work on a relationship that I have been neglecting and that is my relationship with me.

Thanks again for all the well wishes. I hope you all have a wonderful 2008 and beyond.

Here is one of the songs we were dancing to tonight I though it was quite fitting of my new outlook:

WAKE UP CALL!!!!!!!

Tell me something. Why is Adam Levine so darn cute????



I hope you enjoyed that nice musical interlude, if you haven't please go ahead and listen to the song I will wait.

Good you're back. Great song isn't it? Anyway this post is not about the content of the song, but I really like the title. You see I have basically cleaned house in the way where I have cleaned out all of the bad influences in my life and I am trying to make a fresh start. This year I focused completely on me and my son and tried to figure out what it is that I need to do with my life. I thought I finally could start getting things in my life together and really start living and being the person that I was put on this earth to be. The trouble is I still haven't the foggiest idea...

I have been looking for my wake-up call all year and nothing!! In fact I am more confused than ever. I always wanted to be a lawyer ever since I was a little girl, but the truth is I just wanted to make enough money to not be poor anymore. I am not sure where my passions lie. I don't really know what I want to be when I grow-up and considering that I will be 30 any day now and I have a small child to raise I really should have figured this out years ago.

I feel like I am so behind the power curve...I am just now seeing the light at the end of the tunnel on getting my undergrad degree. There is still so much to learn and for me to do to reach my goal of being an attorney, but meanwhile I have this little kid depending on me to give him direction. How in the hell can I give him direction when I am still flapping in the wind.

I guess what I really want to know is how do people know what they are passionate about ? What will truly make them happy? How do you know when you are truly good at something? I mean yes I am passionate about a lot of things but I don't seem to be good enough to do any of it. I know this probably the depression talking, but damn I feel like I have just missed out on some chapter on life that everyone else has figured out and I am still in the dark.

I need a wake-up call. I need something...

I'm so tired of this shit.

Bring Me To Life

Gwen Stefani: 4 In The Morning

Love this song!!!

Feeling Nostalgic...

Remember Lisa Lisa and the Cult Jam??

What about this song??




Or This???




"All Cried Out" is a great song but I like the Allure version feat. 112 better...

SWV: RAIN

I was up late last night and caught an episode of "I Married a Baller" I forgot how much I loved these girls back in the day. Enjoy!!

No Doubt: Ex-Girlfriend and Bathwater

I need No Doubt to get back together and make another album. I mean I love Gwen, but...uh...she needs her boys back.



This is one of my favorite No Doubt songs. I don't really care for the video too much though.



This is what Sanjaya was trying to sing. I really wish Gwen wouldn't have let him.