Wednesday, February 18, 2009
I'm feeling some kinda way...
Like I am stunted or emotionally immature in some way. I don't know what to do. I wish I could be different, but I don't know how to be.
Monday, January 26, 2009
My Weekend
My weekend started out a drag, but ended on a nice note. Last week I wasn't feeling very well. I was exhausted and just down right blah. Nothing I did was getting me out of the funk I was in.
Anyway, Friday after work I ran a few errands and then went home, ate dinner, cleaned a little and got in bed and vegged out until I fell asleep. I woke up at 3am and turned the TV on and watched infomercials for a while. When I finally realized that I was not going back to sleep I popped in a DVD.
Once the movie was over it was time to get up and get ready to go to the salon with Monnie. She has been after me for months to get some layers cut into my hair. I agreed that something needed to be done, but I wasn't sure what. I had been itching to get it cut, but I wasn't sure what style. We went to this Dominican salon and at first I was a little nervous...well I was a lot nervous. I mean there have been so many times that I've left a salon unhappy with my hair. After getting my hair washed and roller set and watching the various stylist I began to relax a little and felt safe enough to allow the stylist to cut my hair. I wanted long layers, but she said that I needed a good trim. I knew what was going to happen next, but I figured what the hell it's just hair it will grow back. When she was done with my hair I was floored at how good it looked and how much I absolutely loved it!!!
*Next, Monnie and I scooped up our boys (E and Prince Ziggy)and we all went to lunch to celebrate the Hostess' birthday. A fun time was had by all, which included Sissy, Gladys, Onefromphilly and Honest. When E and I got home we just relax the rest of the afternoon.
Sunday was spent first with sleeping in and going to the grocery store. Then I spent all afternoon cooking up my food for the week. Since classes are starting up soon I need to cook a few meals to freeze for those days I am too busy or too tired to cook a good meal. Today I made navy bean soup in the crock pot (we will eat half this week and I will freeze the other half), Italian chicken chowder, turkey meatballs (which I put in the freezer for later), roasted veggies, brown rice and salad. Next weekend I will make some more food to freeze. This really helps cut down on the fast food runs. My pledge for 2009 was no fast food, so hopefully we can do it. I really do love to cook, but with all that I have going on sometimes it is hard to find the time to really make something good. I am going to make the effort this year to have a home cooked meal at least 90% of the time.
Well that is about it. I have to mentally prepare myself for the back to work grind...sigh. I'm really not sure what I'm gonna do about my job situation once I graduate. Part of me wants to leave, but part of me realizes that it might be better to stay awhile longer and see what the economy is gonna do. I guess this summer I will just organize my resume and send it out and see what comes up. I don't have to take a job if I don't want it.
Have a great week!!
Anyway, Friday after work I ran a few errands and then went home, ate dinner, cleaned a little and got in bed and vegged out until I fell asleep. I woke up at 3am and turned the TV on and watched infomercials for a while. When I finally realized that I was not going back to sleep I popped in a DVD.
Once the movie was over it was time to get up and get ready to go to the salon with Monnie. She has been after me for months to get some layers cut into my hair. I agreed that something needed to be done, but I wasn't sure what. I had been itching to get it cut, but I wasn't sure what style. We went to this Dominican salon and at first I was a little nervous...well I was a lot nervous. I mean there have been so many times that I've left a salon unhappy with my hair. After getting my hair washed and roller set and watching the various stylist I began to relax a little and felt safe enough to allow the stylist to cut my hair. I wanted long layers, but she said that I needed a good trim. I knew what was going to happen next, but I figured what the hell it's just hair it will grow back. When she was done with my hair I was floored at how good it looked and how much I absolutely loved it!!!
*Next, Monnie and I scooped up our boys (E and Prince Ziggy)and we all went to lunch to celebrate the Hostess' birthday. A fun time was had by all, which included Sissy, Gladys, Onefromphilly and Honest. When E and I got home we just relax the rest of the afternoon.
Sunday was spent first with sleeping in and going to the grocery store. Then I spent all afternoon cooking up my food for the week. Since classes are starting up soon I need to cook a few meals to freeze for those days I am too busy or too tired to cook a good meal. Today I made navy bean soup in the crock pot (we will eat half this week and I will freeze the other half), Italian chicken chowder, turkey meatballs (which I put in the freezer for later), roasted veggies, brown rice and salad. Next weekend I will make some more food to freeze. This really helps cut down on the fast food runs. My pledge for 2009 was no fast food, so hopefully we can do it. I really do love to cook, but with all that I have going on sometimes it is hard to find the time to really make something good. I am going to make the effort this year to have a home cooked meal at least 90% of the time.
Well that is about it. I have to mentally prepare myself for the back to work grind...sigh. I'm really not sure what I'm gonna do about my job situation once I graduate. Part of me wants to leave, but part of me realizes that it might be better to stay awhile longer and see what the economy is gonna do. I guess this summer I will just organize my resume and send it out and see what comes up. I don't have to take a job if I don't want it.
Have a great week!!
Friday, January 23, 2009
This Is Some Random Bull...
Earlier in this month I was having a terrible case of insomnia. This week I can't seem to get enough sleep.
Late November I met a really nice guy and it really caught me off guard, because it has been YEARS since I've met a man that I have been so infatuated with. Usually I have no type of feelings toward men...hardly even notice them as being attractive or otherwise.
A long time ago in another lifetime I used to be fun. I'm not sure what happened...A majority of the time I don't miss that girl. She wasn't very nice and very rarely sober. Although I do miss her body...sigh
When I imagine what my life will be like in 5 to 10 years there is never a man in the picture with me. I think I actually prefer it this way. I have so many things that I want to do and being in a relationship may slow me down. Unless I can find someone just as crazy as me.
I'm not afraid to die. I'm afraid of having a long extended illness. In fact if I was told I had a fatal illness I would just end it on my own terms.
I love my son so much, but sometimes I wonder if I am really good for him.
I believe in God, but I often wonder what I did to piss him off so much.
Today I am feeling a little better.
I often wonder whether Jennifer Lopez would have the career she has had if Selena was never murdered. I know odd.
Sometimes I see this dude who is an obvious burn victim while I am out doing errands for work. The thing that always gets me is not that his face and hands are badly scarred from being burned but that he is always lighting up or smoking a cigarette when I see him.
Have a great weekend!!
Late November I met a really nice guy and it really caught me off guard, because it has been YEARS since I've met a man that I have been so infatuated with. Usually I have no type of feelings toward men...hardly even notice them as being attractive or otherwise.
A long time ago in another lifetime I used to be fun. I'm not sure what happened...A majority of the time I don't miss that girl. She wasn't very nice and very rarely sober. Although I do miss her body...sigh
When I imagine what my life will be like in 5 to 10 years there is never a man in the picture with me. I think I actually prefer it this way. I have so many things that I want to do and being in a relationship may slow me down. Unless I can find someone just as crazy as me.
I'm not afraid to die. I'm afraid of having a long extended illness. In fact if I was told I had a fatal illness I would just end it on my own terms.
I love my son so much, but sometimes I wonder if I am really good for him.
I believe in God, but I often wonder what I did to piss him off so much.
Today I am feeling a little better.
I often wonder whether Jennifer Lopez would have the career she has had if Selena was never murdered. I know odd.
Sometimes I see this dude who is an obvious burn victim while I am out doing errands for work. The thing that always gets me is not that his face and hands are badly scarred from being burned but that he is always lighting up or smoking a cigarette when I see him.
Have a great weekend!!
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Today...
I feel like crap and I don't know why. I feel like I've crashed after sustaining an incredibily long high. This sucks.
The Interview
1. If you want to participate, leave me a comment saying, “Interview me.” (And your e-mail address, please.)
2. I will respond by emailing you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.
My interview questions came from Kayla.
1. If you could change what you do for a living, what would you do? Why? Well, this question is actually a pretty easy one, because I am working on changing what I am doing for a living as we speak. Right now I'm a paralegal and even though I enjoy most of what I do I would rather have the salary that comes with being an attorney. This is the year that I am going to be taking the next steps that I need to take to go about going to law school. Hopefully, I will be accepted and start that chapter in my life no later then the fall of 2010.
2. What's one cd you're ashamed to tell people you have?
This is a tough one because I have such an eclectic taste in music and I have never been ashamed of what kind of music I like. I had to actually look at my CD collection and see what I would less likely like to be caught jammin' to in my car. For lack of a better answer I would have to say the soundtrack to the movie "Grease". I love that soundtrack, but would probably a little embarrased to admit that I know every lyric to every song including dance moves.
3. Do you remember your first kiss? If so, who was it with?
Unfortunately, I don't remember my first kiss, but I assume it was with my first boyfriend Paolo. He was from Brazil and we dated in 9th grade for a few months.
4. Do you have any regrets about losing someone you dated?
I'm sure I had regrets after we broke up, but at this point in time I realize it was for the best.
5. Did you ever own MC Hammer pants?
No. Thank God I was never that cool.
2. I will respond by emailing you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You will update your blog with the answers to the questions.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.
My interview questions came from Kayla.
1. If you could change what you do for a living, what would you do? Why? Well, this question is actually a pretty easy one, because I am working on changing what I am doing for a living as we speak. Right now I'm a paralegal and even though I enjoy most of what I do I would rather have the salary that comes with being an attorney. This is the year that I am going to be taking the next steps that I need to take to go about going to law school. Hopefully, I will be accepted and start that chapter in my life no later then the fall of 2010.
2. What's one cd you're ashamed to tell people you have?
This is a tough one because I have such an eclectic taste in music and I have never been ashamed of what kind of music I like. I had to actually look at my CD collection and see what I would less likely like to be caught jammin' to in my car. For lack of a better answer I would have to say the soundtrack to the movie "Grease". I love that soundtrack, but would probably a little embarrased to admit that I know every lyric to every song including dance moves.
3. Do you remember your first kiss? If so, who was it with?
Unfortunately, I don't remember my first kiss, but I assume it was with my first boyfriend Paolo. He was from Brazil and we dated in 9th grade for a few months.
4. Do you have any regrets about losing someone you dated?
I'm sure I had regrets after we broke up, but at this point in time I realize it was for the best.
5. Did you ever own MC Hammer pants?
No. Thank God I was never that cool.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Picture it...
...Saturday January 17, 2009 temperature 11 degrees Farenheight. I woke up at the butt crack of dawn to prepare E and I to go to a boy scouting event. E is in his last year as a Cub Scout and in order to get his Arrow of light pin he needed to go to a Boy Scout activity and observe. This is our morning in pictures.
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