I'm Sad... *Updated*

I have been trying so hard pretending not to be for the last couple of months, but I don't know how much longer I can keep it up.

I am sad.
I don't know how to fix it or if it can be fixed.

I'm also lonely.
I try and act like I'm not but I am.
I try and keep myself as busy as possible,so I don't notice it.
But there is no denying it.

I am lonely.

I just needed to say these things out loud.


I am inspired.
http://roycesdaughter.blogspot.com/2007/09/time-does-heel.html
This girl speaks the truth and with time all my wounds will be healed.
I just have to be patient and let G-d take control and stop trying to rush everything.

E the Greek Philosopher!!

On the way home E informed me that he could not finish his homework at his after school care because he was being distracted by one of the other kids. I have been working with him on trying his best to ignore the other kids, but it's proving to be a losing battle...sigh. Anyway this is how the conversation played out.


Me: E, haven’t I told you that you should not let other people distract you? You just have to try your best to ignore them.

E: (Looks up from his book) Mom, do you know the Greek expression “give me a long lever and I can move the earth"

Me: No, what is that suppose to mean?

E: It means if people annoy me enough times I am bound to be distracted no matter how hard I try not to be.

Me: **Crickets**

E: (Going back to reading his book)

Me: BWWHAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!


Man, I am going to have to look this up to see if it is an actual Greek expression.

***UPDATE***
My curiosity got the best of me and I googled the expression and hot damn did the boy come close to what the actual quote is. Greek mathematician Archimedes said it and it goes "Give me a lever long enough and a place to stand and I will move the earth."

Not bad for an 8 year-old...That's MY boy!!!

What's on my mind

I have so much on my mind right now I just don't know where to begin. I guess that is part of the problem though...I think way too much and really just kind of make myself crazy thinking about things obsessively.

My life is going OK thus far this new school year and E is handling his broken arm like a champ. We had a follow-up visit Friday to see how his bone was healing. They actually took off the long red cast and put him in a short one. He chose the color light blue for this cast and the best part is that it is waterproof!! Whoo-hoo!!!! thank the Lord, because I was so tired of having to wrap his arm up every night and help him bathe.

E is so funny and had me cracking up all that morning at the doctor's office he comes up with the most off the wall expressions this is his new one "Great English Breakfast in the Morning that is a great idea!!" you can pretty much add whatever it is you want after the word morning.

Oh!! and I can't forget my darling son has found a new love for music and has informed me that he wants to play an instrument in school this year. His instrument of choice is a TROMBONE!! (he says only if his arms are long enough... LOL) I asked him what his second choice was and tried to convince him to play something a little ummm...cooler like the saxophone (but then I am biased because that is my favorite instrument) or maybe something in the string family like the cello (again being biased because I actually played the cello for 7 years...shhhhh don't tell no one). His little heart is set on the trombone though, but he has assured me that he will make playing the trombone cool...LOL!! (his words exactly). I guess it is not a bad instrument to pick I actually do like it, but I just can't imagine my little boy blowing that big ol' horn. I could barely blow my sister K's clarinet and I was a grown woman...LOL.


I had a job interview last week, but I am not sure much will come of it. The day after the interview they called asking questions about expected graduation date and when I told them next year they did not sound to enthusiastic. Oh well...I was having second thoughts about getting a new job anyway with having just a year left in school. I've been at my current job over 5 years and even though 90% of the time I dread waking up in the morning to go there it does have its perks. I am just completely bored and overqualified for the actual work I am given to do. I can not wait to find a job that I can actually use my brain and the skills I am learning in school. I just feel so...I don't know...frustrated!!! I actually hate the person I have turned into being there and I have become really complacent and that is not me at all. I usually take such pride in every thing I do, but now I could really care less. In the last couple of weeks I have learned to grin and bear it... 2009 I will flood the system with my resume along with my brand new shiny degree to match. I can't wait!!

Let's see what else is going on...

Nothing major except some therapy stuff that I may blog about later this week. I hope everyone is having a great Monday!!!

Conversation with E

Friday night sitting at home and this is the exchange:

Me: You want to watch a movie?

E: With you?

Me: Yes

E: Hmmmm.... maybe tomorrow

Me: Well... (acting all offended)

E: Mom, its not like I don't love you, but this really good show is on.

Me: (turning around leaving the room feeling rejected)


Not even an 8 year-old wants to hang out with me...LOL!!!