Moving...

I haven't forgotten about my promise to blog once a week. I've just been trying to figure out how to move my blog without losing all my content. I thought about just starting from scratch, but then I figured...Naw! I want to continue to share all of my journey even the fact that I was on hiatus for so long. Anyway, you can find me here. See ya, on the other side.

P.S. Thanks TiffanyinHouston for the help!

2011 Goals...

Well, let me start off by saying that I had a very good week. I'm starting off 2011 on the right foot. Now, let's just hope I can keep it up. Let's jump into my 2011 goals. I have some challenges ahead but I'm trying to be realistic about it all as to not get to overwhelmed.

First, I would like to keep up with my running/working out. My big goal this year is to do a half marathon. I have one picked out already the Marine Corp Half Marathon in May. I'm gonna sign up for it this week. I'm also gonna do some of the same races I did last year. I would also like to incorporate other types of exercises into my workout rotation. Just this past week I tried Zumba and Bikram Yoga. I really enjoyed them both! Bikram Yoga is not for the fate of heart and is VERY intense...I wasn't quite sure I was gonna make it through the whole class. But I did it! And I plan on doing it again this week.

My second goal this year is to finally take the LSAT and start applying to law schools. I took an LSAT class last summer, but then studying started falling by the wayside. To be honest I was just scared that I wouldn't do a good job. The LSAT score is VERY important and I'm not very good at standardized type tests. I plan on taking the test in June. I figured that will give me plenty of time to study and to retake the class.

The last major goal is to save money. I'm a pretty frugal person... I don't buy a lot of unnessary things, but I do need a little help budgeting. Around November of last year I started tracking my spending using Mint Now, I'm trying to create a livable budget, so that I can save money to buy a house at some point in the next 5 or 6 years. Wish me luck!

In order to accomplish my goals I decided that this year I would write them down in a notebook. I divided my goals into quarterly benchmarks to make them easier to focus on. Futhermore, I wrote out a monthly goal list and then each day I make a list of each thing I want to accomplish towards that goal. I know that seems like a lot...but that's what I need to keep focus and on task. Adult ADD is deep and it's real...LOL!

That's about it for now...I'll make sure I'll update you all every so often about how I'm doing. How do you stay on task when trying to accomplish your goals?

Happy New Year!! Happy New Me!!

I've been MIA for a long, long time, but now I'm back. I had to stop blogging back in 2009 because I realized that I was starting to become a sad sack. I was tired of always feeling like I was writing nothing but how my life sucked. I felt bad and my writing reflected that.

I spent the rest of 2009 slipping downward on a slippery slope of depression. Until it just culminated in my getting a wake up call from a couple of friends. I realized then that I had to do something. I could no longer allow my life to go drifting by and waiting to get better and feel better. December 2009 I made a plan. I literally named it "A Guide to How to Save my Life", because I knew I needed saving. And I knew the only person that could do it was me. No amount of therapy, venting to friends or medication would help me. I had to get off my butt make a plan and stick to it. So, I made an outline listing all the areas that I wanted to improve in. At that time I still wasn't sure how I was going to implement the plan, but I prayed that God would help me find a way.

A couple of months later I found my lifeline...one of my co-workers, who lives near me decided to start a walking group to help us all lose a few pounds before summer. She invited me to join and although I don't really like mixing my business life with my personal life...I joined. Then things started to take off from there. One of the ladies mentioned running and I used to run and enjoyed it very much, so I decided to start running again in April and ran my first race of the year that very same month...a 10K. My love of running was rekindled...my mental health improved tremendously and I started to lose those 15lbs I'd picked up along the way.

During 2010 I ran 7 races including the Army Ten Miler with some of the Usual Suspects. Although, I still have my moments I'm in a much happier place then I was a year ago. Barring any real injuries or illnesses I plan never to stop working out, because I know that for me working out is directly related to my moods. And does WONDERS for my mental health!!

Yesterday, I sat down and wrote out all of the goals I want to accomplish this year. I will share them on a later post. Of course one of my goals is to blog...at least once per week. I will write a post every Sunday and if I don't call me out!

Well, anyway I hope you all have a Happy New Year! I know I will!

I'm feeling some kinda way...

Like I am stunted or emotionally immature in some way. I don't know what to do. I wish I could be different, but I don't know how to be.

My Weekend

My weekend started out a drag, but ended on a nice note. Last week I wasn't feeling very well. I was exhausted and just down right blah. Nothing I did was getting me out of the funk I was in.

Anyway, Friday after work I ran a few errands and then went home, ate dinner, cleaned a little and got in bed and vegged out until I fell asleep. I woke up at 3am and turned the TV on and watched infomercials for a while. When I finally realized that I was not going back to sleep I popped in a DVD.

Once the movie was over it was time to get up and get ready to go to the salon with Monnie. She has been after me for months to get some layers cut into my hair. I agreed that something needed to be done, but I wasn't sure what. I had been itching to get it cut, but I wasn't sure what style. We went to this Dominican salon and at first I was a little nervous...well I was a lot nervous. I mean there have been so many times that I've left a salon unhappy with my hair. After getting my hair washed and roller set and watching the various stylist I began to relax a little and felt safe enough to allow the stylist to cut my hair. I wanted long layers, but she said that I needed a good trim. I knew what was going to happen next, but I figured what the hell it's just hair it will grow back. When she was done with my hair I was floored at how good it looked and how much I absolutely loved it!!!

*Next, Monnie and I scooped up our boys (E and Prince Ziggy)and we all went to lunch to celebrate the Hostess' birthday. A fun time was had by all, which included Sissy, Gladys, Onefromphilly and Honest. When E and I got home we just relax the rest of the afternoon.

Sunday was spent first with sleeping in and going to the grocery store. Then I spent all afternoon cooking up my food for the week. Since classes are starting up soon I need to cook a few meals to freeze for those days I am too busy or too tired to cook a good meal. Today I made navy bean soup in the crock pot (we will eat half this week and I will freeze the other half), Italian chicken chowder, turkey meatballs (which I put in the freezer for later), roasted veggies, brown rice and salad. Next weekend I will make some more food to freeze. This really helps cut down on the fast food runs. My pledge for 2009 was no fast food, so hopefully we can do it. I really do love to cook, but with all that I have going on sometimes it is hard to find the time to really make something good. I am going to make the effort this year to have a home cooked meal at least 90% of the time.

Well that is about it. I have to mentally prepare myself for the back to work grind...sigh. I'm really not sure what I'm gonna do about my job situation once I graduate. Part of me wants to leave, but part of me realizes that it might be better to stay awhile longer and see what the economy is gonna do. I guess this summer I will just organize my resume and send it out and see what comes up. I don't have to take a job if I don't want it.

Have a great week!!

This Is Some Random Bull...

Earlier in this month I was having a terrible case of insomnia. This week I can't seem to get enough sleep.

Late November I met a really nice guy and it really caught me off guard, because it has been YEARS since I've met a man that I have been so infatuated with. Usually I have no type of feelings toward men...hardly even notice them as being attractive or otherwise.

A long time ago in another lifetime I used to be fun. I'm not sure what happened...A majority of the time I don't miss that girl. She wasn't very nice and very rarely sober. Although I do miss her body...sigh

When I imagine what my life will be like in 5 to 10 years there is never a man in the picture with me. I think I actually prefer it this way. I have so many things that I want to do and being in a relationship may slow me down. Unless I can find someone just as crazy as me.

I'm not afraid to die. I'm afraid of having a long extended illness. In fact if I was told I had a fatal illness I would just end it on my own terms.

I love my son so much, but sometimes I wonder if I am really good for him.

I believe in God, but I often wonder what I did to piss him off so much.

Today I am feeling a little better.

I often wonder whether Jennifer Lopez would have the career she has had if Selena was never murdered. I know odd.

Sometimes I see this dude who is an obvious burn victim while I am out doing errands for work. The thing that always gets me is not that his face and hands are badly scarred from being burned but that he is always lighting up or smoking a cigarette when I see him.

Have a great weekend!!

Today...

I feel like crap and I don't know why. I feel like I've crashed after sustaining an incredibily long high. This sucks.